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Maybe I'll love youThere you are
sitting down, trying to say much
and saying nothing,
you look at me
and I don't know what to say to dry your tears.
You avoid me
and look at me again.
I hold my face to don't fall.
And you press your lips
'cause you don't wanna hurt me.
I never abandoned you,
just love dies
when you have no place where to hold.
I never left you alone,
you were whom forgot
past doens't exist and future is no real.
No, I didn't play with you;
but I look at your face and you're not convinced.
What do you want me to do, rebuilding everything?
Are you going to love me more than you didn't love me?
And you cry and keep silence.
And you wonder why I don't cry
And I know it
I know a broken heart doesn't cry,
broken and hard, that got tired of looking at your eyes waiting,
tired of thinking: "maybe she'll change".
Maybe I would have to change
Maybe we would have,
Forgive me, maybe tomorrow it won't hurt that much.
I know you won't kiss me or hug me for last time.
WhyWhy is it that hard you love me?
Don't I deserve your love?
Am I that simple, that dumb
that ugly, that poor?
Did gods forbid me to kiss?
Am I paying a fault?
Am I that nothing?
Are you that far?
When will you call me?
Whe will your lips pronounce my name?
When will you know I exist?
When will the night be my day?
When will my mind stop thinking of you,
my love, my heart?
Yes, I'm here,
That guy in love,
in love with a dream,
in love with a song
that hits my soul
each time I see the depth of your eyes,
each time I'm alone,
each time that I breathe.
Magical sensation ran over my chest
When I had you close,
When you smiled at me for mistake,
When I appeared in your life
at least for a time
at least for not long.
There is no girl like you.
Just give me a chance and I'll stroke your face with a cloud
And you'd taste my sky.
Tell me to go to the past and I'll fly to ancient Rome
And I'd sculpt your body in marble
like a lost goddess whose arms were not broken in war.
Yes, I'm in love with y
Don't Love MeDon't love me or I'll cry the day you'll be gone.
Don't hold my hands or they'll need you always.
Don't get me used to the breath of your soul when you kiss me.
Don't pronounce my name or I'll be broken in the middle of the silence.
Don't say words I can't paint.
Don't say you'll find me when sun rubs the sea
'Cause I'd go there like a dream that lives in my nights.
Don't smile or I'll think everything is spring
And when the moon comes and flowers close
I'll miss you.
Don't love me or I'll suffer if i hurt you.
Don't love what can fail.
Don't think I'm a prince or an angel
'Cause I'm clay.
I'm a moment of illussions.
I'm the past that never walks.
I'm a shadow, I'm a ghost.
Don't hug me
Or I won't resist your absence
And if you decide to touch me
Recover my heart from the darkness
And lean your lips on my forehead,
Make me forget the loneliness of my chest
And sow fire in my depths
Till I be able to love you,
Till I recover my faith.
Letter to a MomI still remember your hand stroking my face.
I still remember when you laughed hard.
I remember you singing those old songs.
You washed my face when I fell down.
You told me how to pray.
You knew me well.
You called me 'son'.
I remember you getting angry,
I remember runing away,
I remember those bad days,
When we were so poor,
When Dad was not there,
When you cried,
When you kept silence,
When we needed a home.
You never liked my girlfriends,
You never liked my friends.
You said they were bad guys.
You said drugs were not good.
I knew I was rebel.
I knew I made u feel sad.
Sometimes I just didn't understand life.
Sometimes I needed my dad.
And you suffered.
I remember the colour of our walls.
I remember that old table where we talked,
the day I left you,
the day I lost you,
The day I failed you.
The day I broke your heart.
You cried when they caught me.
You cried when they called me guilty.
You kept silence when u saw me with those orange clothes,
A blind loveA pure heart
so far from here
and so close.
A beautiful life
to shine and shine
And I'm without you
but you're with me.
A big sun above my head
and my eyes can't see.
Let me imagine the shape of your cheeks.
Let me imagine the colour of your teeth.
Show me how I can live in a world without rainbow.
Teach me how to love something I don't know.
Just my hands stroking your forehead
and my fingers touching your lips can tell me about you.
Your hair is so soft,
it feels like the water of the sea kissing my legs.
There is no day or night to me,
Everything is just ...grey?
Only the sound of your voice
calms down my anxiety to see you,
my anxiety to live.
Your hands on my face tells me how pretty you are.
Your body warming my heart says how much you love this blind man.
Your eyes...your eyes, I can't talk about them
But I guess they're just wonderful
like a kind of Heaven waiting for me.
If my soul knew what is red or blue
I'd paint you in each centimeter of my skin.
If your tears had a colour
Unknown LoveWhere are you?
Night and day trying to find,
trying to see,
trying to say.
I've drawn you a lot of times,
but you're not on my drawings.
I've painted you wasting my eyes,
but I can't get the colours of your feelings.
Tell me what I have to do to know you,
to get a bit of ur love,
to get more than a dream,
to get your nose rubbing my cheeks,
to get your hands
drawing your name on my lips,
to get ur fingers giving shape to my face,
stroking my loneliness,
stroking my fears.
Paint a star on my forehead,
the sun on my chest,
the sky on my eyes
and wings on my arms.
Let me fly with you
where you live.
Show me the world.
Show me the wind.
Show me your soul.
Show who I am.
Show who you are.
They told me I'd find you,
but it seems too far.
It seems I've lost my voice
and you can't hear,
It seems I've done all that I could
and you never existed
and you'll never exist.
But I still have a hope.
If you're there, my unknown love,
You have here a poor heart,
you have here a lil song,
you have here a
Your NothingToo fool to understand you,
Too weak to resist you,
Too slow to catch you,
Too far to touch you.
Sometimes I feel my words are not enough.
Sometimes I think you even forgot my name.
Sometimes I'm not sure if you know I exist.
Sometimes I cry for you without tears.
Cause' each word is for you,
each word falls down from my eyes,
from my soul,from my heart
and just wanna express how empty is my life, my time,
my love, my hands, my lips.
I can't find the way you see me as I see you.
I can't find the way you think of me
spending every moment of the f...ng night
just imagining your eyes saying you need me
as I need you.
My pillow is full of my kisses.
My pillow has the marks of my hugs.
MY pillow knows my dreams about you
and even knows your name.
But, probably I'm just a number in your life.
Probably, you're just kind.
Probably you're just polite.
Probably I just mean nothing.
Nothing, that's me,
the nothing that loves you in the silence,
the nothing that screams when nobody hears,
I don't know howI could count eighty seconds in a minute
just seeing you
and they were not enough.
I could look into your eyes more than
a mother could look at her children
and it was not enough.
I could write seventy poems about your smile
and they were not enough.
I'm afraid you laugh.
I'm afraid you lie.
I've been waiting for this for long.
I've tried to show you my heart, my dreams, my soul,
I don't know what else to do.
I don't know how to say it.
I don't know what word to use.
But if you don't love me,
I can't do much.
If you don't feel the sun each time I say your name,
then I can do nothing.
If you think I'm just a friend,
then I can't insist.
I really believed you thought of me
everytime I had to go.
I really thought you needed me so much when you cried,
when I stroked your cheeks.
I thought you were my soulmate,
my dream, my girl, my all.
I might say sixty times 'I love you'
and you wouldn't move a finger for me.
I might give you the sky
and you wouldn't fly over my clouds.
Breaking upSo unfair, you say.
And it seems I don't love you as you want.
You're there looking at me with eyes of Heaven
And I'm so cold like Dante's Hell,
like the soul of a man that loved so much
but never trusted again.
So unfair, you say.
And my lips don't taste as yours.
My kisses are salted like a rock,
like my sweat, like my thoughts.
And you want me to love you.
And you want me to feel.
And you want me to be...
yours... and it's hard.
It's hard to be as you dreamed of me.
It's hard to love without heart.
It's hard to live as I'm not.
It's hard, just hard.
No, please, don't cry!
Don't cry, my love!
Don't say I'm mean.
Don't say I'm cruel.
Don't say I lied.
Don't say you'll die
if I leave you,
if I stop calling you "my life",
if I see you for last time,
if I go and you're not there,
if a 'bye'
is the worst word I can say.
I'll understand if you don't want to hug me.
I'll understand if you don't want to take my hand.
I'll understand everything you do
'cause you know that you lost me.
I'll wipe off your tearsTrust me when I say this, everything will be alright
I’ll be here, to comfort you every moment of your life
Cry on my chest if you like, only if it lets you feel right
Because I will always be here, right by your side
I know some things can be unexpected,
And sometimes the bad can’t be evaded
But I’ll try my best, so you can be able to rest
And I’ll try my best to relieve you from stress
Because I care too much to leave you with pain
It tears my heart to see you like this again
You’ve told me to step back, but it's too sad and tiring
I promise you, this will be the last time you’ll be crying
I Gave and would Give stillI gave and would give still
Overwhelm you with my love
All my kisses yours
Even against your will
I took but never again will I take
This love goes one way only
None of my affections will be answered
All you gave and give is fake
You took while I was giving
Icecold you, collected all my warmth
Heartless you, stole my powerful pounding
All you gave was an empty chest
Like death, unable to rest
Only I am still living.
I'm left with hope.I know it happened once, but it left me scarred
I won't give up, but I'm still afraid
But I will be brave, I just hope it won't happen again
Because I'm not sure I'll be able to handle the pain
It feels like all I can do is hope, for the best days.
Is It Wrong?Is it wrong I want hold you?
Tell you you're wrong?
Cuddle you tightly in my arms?
Is it wrong I want to kiss you?
Tell you you're perfect?
Let you know what you mean to me?
Is it wrong that I want to see you?
Tell you how much I care for you?
Hold your hands in mine though they're shaking?
Is it wrong that I'm falling in love with you?
Tell you that to your face?
Kiss you and never let you go?
Is it wrong?
Shattered PoetryPiano music playing through her ears,
Echos in her thoughts,
Stretch and last for years,
Her tears mixing with the rain,
While her fears take on real form,
Laying in bed at night,
Her only company,
A street light,
Lighting her candle,
The flame is there,
The flame will listen,
How bad is it,
When the fire is all that's left,
The burnt pieces of childhood lay forgotten in the rain,
her name forever tainted,
She'll never remain,
Let the water wash her away,
Let the fire burn her to ash,
So that she can join the remains,
Of her shattered past,
The past that was shattered in pieces,
From the moment she lived them,
Broken like a mirror,
Like the glass?
A monster she can see in the blood stained chrome,
A monster she'll remain,
Music to her ears,
That insanity is spreading through her brain,
Poison flooding her veins,
She should have died years ago,
But forever she'll remain,
A forgotten relic,
Of a tortured past,
The girl who never broke,
Except on the inside,
Where not even
Love LetterYou are re-creating the word love for me
I have never felt anything in my heart so deep
I'm so in love that I'll never be the same
I just want to be with you every single day
You have touched my heart in many different ways
And now from my heart you'll never go away
I feel so warm every time you're here,
I feel so cold whenever you disappear
Though it feels like you are already mine
Who knows if that's real, who know if it's a lie?
I just think about you every single time
Every time I write, and when I close my eyes
But I'm just waiting for that special day
For when you finally say, yes
Missing YouSince I woke up today
I've been struggling to breathe.
Choking on your name
Asking you not to leave.
It happened again,
I saw you in my dream.
I'm still trying to catch my breath
Trying not to scream.
I need to wipe these tears
I need to blur your face.
Force this heart back into gear,
make it regain its normal pace.
So I'll go get my pills
And I'll bring out the liquor.
Keep on lying to myself
Saying "today I really don't miss her".
But I'm haunted.
Can't get you off my head.
I wish that I would die,
For you to be the one suffering instead.
Why did we fight that night?
How could I let you drive away?
If i knew that you'd been drinking
I should have forced you to stay
is the anniversary of your death.
I've been trying not to think of you,
But I'm crying, still short of breath.
I take out my wallet
Where I still hold your picture.
Wondering if I'll meet you soon
Thanks to this pill and liquor mixture.
But I feel nothing
I've been drinking this all morning
My heart still hasn'
Do You Remember?Do you remember that poem you wrote me?
Well, I found it the other day.
It was in my jacket pocket.
I didn't know one piece of paper
Could bring back so many memories.
It's amazing how long it has been
Since you gave it to me.
I am thankful that
I had you in my life.
All the good and bad times,
They made us that much stronger.
Thank you for coming into my life.
Thank you loving me.
I couldn't have asked for anything better.
So you see what a simple
Piece of paper with words on it can do.
It made me remember why I cared so much.
It made me remember you,
So thank you for writing it.
Fading Shades of GreyDearest reader, please think twice before you try to speak
Words can be like knives that cause the victim to grow weak
Thoughts can be as bullets shooting freely through the sky
Injuring the innocent with every spoken lie
Please forget my laughter, please forget my broken heart
Please do not remember how you tore my life apart
Leave me as a memory that slowly fades to grey
Spend your days as usual, and I shall fade away
Listen to my cry for help, although it is too late
I've become the monster that you struggled to create
Trying to be perfect was a wonderful mistake…
Now I mustn't worry about which chance I will take.
Please erase all memory of who I tried to be
Please do not remember how I tried to be set free
Please do not be saddened under any circumstance …
What's makes now so different from when you still had a chance?
The day I lost youGive me the peace of your lips.
Feed me with the colour of your eyes.
Take my hands with your heart
And heal my life from head to my feet.
Hug me that tight that I can forget my faults.
Repeat my name to remember who I am.
Paint my face with the brushstrokes of your hair
Each time you rub my lips with your mouth,
Each time you smile,
Each time you love.
Slide the sweetness of your soul
And burn my anxiety.
Give a meaning to my existence
To don't miss you 'till death
Each time you go,
Each time your image flies out of me,
out of my mind.
'Cause since you left me
I don't distinguish what is alive and what is empty
Since you went beauty is nothing, beauty is pain.
Without you this world is a bad joke,
a big frame without painting.
The day you died I hated the butterflies
And the flowers were sign of loss.
Nobody could explain 'why',
Nobody heard my voice.
Nobody understood what I did.
Nobody understood what I said.
Nobody knew how I lost my way.
dead dog julyI.
the summer heat lays limp in the city’s lap,
breathing long oppressive breaths.
it does not even lift its lolling head
to bark out hoarse indignancy
when a strange man brings the mail.
there might be heavy rain today,
brought by some swollen, murmuring cloud.
the world will whirl and howl,
then settle down,
to die a little more.
o, quickly, love,
press your back against the wall in fear
as the universe spreads her arms and
shuts her eyes
and starts to summon the end of all things.
come with me
to the place of windows full of speechless afternoon
hot windy whispers of half-formed solutions and resolutions,
sweltering sunlit meadows we’ll wander and then forget.
o quickly, love,
let’s to the season of forgetting
and unwind all of our harshest memories
and fill the universe’s mouth
with mute cotton.
i’ll whisper these words to you some evening
with all my exigency in the hand i rest on your arm—
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